He loves me not

In the very few times we met, I knew that I want him and I knew that he's the man of my dreams. He's very serious about the things he says and he's very funny. I know I dated a lot but you know he's different and I know you think "here she goes again".

The thing is he loves her and I know that he would give the world to her and I know because I'm his confidant. I fell in love with the words he says and how he professes he loves her. I know he does. You can clearly see it and how I wish it was me. If it was me, there will be no regrets. I know that because I will give him the world back.

Now I understand all the hopeless romantics in the world.

True Love Waits

 I fell in and out of love since the last time I wrote here. You can call me whatever you want but yes, I dated a lot.

 The first was okay but he ended up leading me on and not even caring so yeah practically a jerk. The second one, now this is interesting, we came very close. Very very close that I brought him one time to meet my friends because things was going so well for us but I ended up knowing that he's in a relationship with a gay guy but he insists he's straight. Yeah right. His friends told me that he's just using the gay guy for money but that doesn't still sound good to me. That sounded very baaaaaad. Then the ones after that was nothing really special and lasted for only a night.

 I'm not thirsty for guys if that's even grammatically correct. They just came and I just entertained because I think it's about time to explore that side of life since it's been a long time since I've been in a relationship again. They all appeared to be very nice and all but they all had flaws. I know it's normal for people to have flaws and I'm not looking for a perfect guy either. I just wanted someone who could be real as I am. I'm not the hearts and flowers type of girl. I'm not that hard to please. You know that feeling that even though a person isn't really that perfect but you know that you could live with their flaws. You just know that they are the ONE.

 I'm thinking about taking a break from dating again. You know, just live the life as it is because all these guys are stressing me out. I'm not giving up. I'm just taking a break because I don't think this is a good time for me. True love waits. That's what they say but I don't really know where to put that in my life so whatever. I'm going back to the single life again.

 Just recently, I learned that the second one, the one who I brought to meet my friends, told my friends that he's ready "court" me. I really did like him but a lot has happened now. WHERE do I put that now? WHERE does it fit in this whole equation? WHAT does it do now?

 Oh well, you can't really have everything you want. For me, true love does wait. You don't have to go around begging for it. It will come to you. Be patient because fate is preparing your soulmate, special someone, your other half, whatever you wanna call it.

Just wait.