Maturity

Again, I feel like he's pushing me away. Like what the hell. I don't know if it's my insecurities who does this to me but that's how I feel now and I'm also getting the feeling of letting go. I mean that I should let him go. I know that I love him and he loves me and I don't know what's keeping us two. I guess we're those kind of people with "no string attached" attitude but I do want more. I want him to just make it official. If we can't then maybe, it is time to let go and move on.

It's hard to be in this kind of situation cause at the end of the day, anyone from the both of us could just leave. Could just go on and leave the other one. Very different from the feeling of ease that you know that even though how much you fight, you know that you have each other because you're boyfriend and girlfriend. Not this kind of feeling that you gotta see each other everyday cause you are scared that any time any one of you won't be there anymore.

I think it's time to let go now. I think it's time to move on. I mean if he is not man enough to make a relationship of what we have then why should I stay. For the first time that I love you's aren't enough. I feel like it's time for me to be happy and be a big girl and move on.