Single??.....NOT

Remember the title of my last post? I almost did that tonight. I'm being unreasonable whatever but I was hurt. What would you feel if the person that you're in a relationship with, acts like he or she isn't in a relationship. He totally acts like he or she is single in the presence of other people? Exactly, goddamn hurt and insulted in a whole 'nother level.

Well, let's settle for he cause I'm talking about my boyfriend. This is gonna be a whole rant.

I got into a huge fight with him because he did exactly that and he tells me I'm immature and unreasonable. Then be it but I'm not gonna back down until my point is heard. Things kind of died down now but I'm still fuming. I just can't believe that he acted like he's single and there was a girl involved. I  might have been so understanding and everything if only the girl is a pure stranger but no. It was a girl that he had a past with. Pure fuckery.

Then I told him I was tired and give me time to think then he was like if you wanna be that way then no comment and I was so mad and I said fine, no relationship.

I was sooooo ready to let him go at the moment. Even though I loved him but he never gave a good enough reason why he did what he did. It's close but not a reason that could keep my feelings down. I figured out that if he wasn't man enough to declare that he's in a relationship then maybe he's not the man for me. I'm tired and I don't wanna go through all the arguing and all.

Now, he kind of won my feelings back but he didn't erase the doubt and everything else negative that I was feeling. I don't want to be in a relationship with a guy like this but I guess we can quite figure it out since he said that we're going to talk about it tomorrow.

I just hope that he has a good damn reason tomorrow and that his reason is enough for me to stay cause if not, then I guess I have to be somewhere else.

When he said I love you tonight, I answered him that I'm not sure if I can say those word to you right now. I just can't. I had to be real.