LOVE, RELATIONSHIPS, DATING, ROMANCE

Okay, before anything, I'm talking about romantic love here.

I just find it funny how girls my age find themselves so certain about the thing called love. Can you possibly be in love this young? I mean, I like to think of love as a game. You should know how to play it good and play it well in order for you to not fall flat on your face and screw everything up. But with so little experience I can't really say anything.

Of course, I've had flings and "relationships" before if that's what you call them. But I don't know if they even count. I was too young and naive at the time. Well, I'm still young and naive now but you know what I mean. I was too young and too in love with the idea of love that I'm willing to take any heights for it.

I often look back and shook my head at the memory. I mean how stupid can I be? Why did I make those godawful choices? Why do I find it wrong now? Not before when I was doing it? I guess that's what love does to you. It makes wrong things feel right. Sometimes, it makes you do the wrong things for the reasons which you feel is more than enough.

Now, at the age of sixteen, I'm scared of the idea of love and the idea of commitment. I think it's because of the past experiences or maybe it's something personal.I don't know but I'm afraid. Every time I feel that love or romance is near me, I steer myself away cause I don't wanna deepen the affections or I don't wanna fall too far.

Wait, I just had a realization. I think it's because I'm afraid to be hurt. Yes, that's it. I'm scared. I don't want to feel pain. That's why I steer myself away from whatever that may cause me pain.

I know this might sound like I'm really bitter about love and I'm so negative about this stuff but no. Believe it or not, I do believe in love. I do believe in the magic it brings. I do believe in the good that comes with it. It's just the bad that scares me because of course, it's a package deal. It's not always rainbows and butterflies, it's not always hearts and flowers, happy endings are just too surreal in real life.

Wrong Decisions

Wrong decisions. Oh hell. I make a lot of them. Who doesn't? It's not something that we should be proud of but it's something that we should at least consider cause without them we wouldn't be where we are today. We might learn from them, we might not but we should always remember that it's our choices that puts us to where we are today.

Where do I start? My list could just go on and on so I better just talk about them generally.

My wrong decisions helped me mold who I am today. I learned from them. Some I didn't learn from but anyway they impacted my life in a huge way. Some of them pulled me down but it was kinda okay because it helped me learn from them even it meant learning the hard way.

We should all remember too that it all starts with a choice. Even though you'll say that you didn't have any choice, you still made a decision. The question is if it benefited you in a good way or bad. A lot of factors should be considered every time you make decisions like values, beliefs, etc..

I know that making decisions aren't easy. I've been there and done that. All we have to do is some deep thinking before making them. Sometimes, even deep thinking isn't helping, I know.But always just try to go with your heart. Don't overthink when making a decision cause you might regret it in the future. Deep thinking and overthinking are two different things always remember that.

Not all wrong decisions are meant to be regretted. Sometimes, they're just designed to help us realize and understand why things are the way they are. As, I've said we can learn from them. It's actually up to us on how we turn these things to something positive. As I've said we always have a say in these things.

Ironically, sometimes these wrong decisions leads us to the right places because they pushed us to do good. The moment we learn from these wrong decisions, we are the ones who are to decide what will we do next. It's our life so we should always have a say in it.

And yeah, one more thing, Never learn from the mistakes of others. Make your own mistakes and learn from them.

Is it okay to be in love with your best friend??

The answer to the question above is yes but it's always the circumstances that makes it harder. It's okay to be in love but that doesn't always say that you end up together. That's the hard thing I guess.

Friendship, is one thing and love, is another. It's two different things and it's like two different games that you should know how to play well in order for you to not screw up cause if not, you're back at the end of the line.

I remember one person said to me once that in a relationship, friendship should be abundant because the love just fades away and the friendship is what makes the relationship stays.

I've read and heard about people falling for their best friends more times than I can remember. It's almost all the same.

Of course, it might be friendship throughout at first but somehow, somewhere along the way you WILL actually develop feelings. Some are real and some are just pure infatuation.

I think it all starts when you get intimate. I mean you know, hugging and other stuff. Especially if you're best friend belongs to the opposite sex or to another sex.


Sometimes, it's even because the other person received mixed signals or might have interpreted something to something more. Actions may lead to feelings to you know?

Sometimes the actions are just plain irresistible and you can't help but develop feeling to your best friend.

Then when the best friend falls in love ore enters into another relationship romantically the one suffers silently. The person just watches the other one be happy and remain happy with another someone as this person drowns himself/herself deeper in misery.

Well, I'm not saying that all 'I'm in love with my best friend' story ends like this but it's USUALLY like this so you know.

I just think that you can't actually fall in love with someone who isn't your best friend. Cause you see, when you're in love with someone, they became your best friends and your best friends becomes second in your list. That's real and I promise you I can attest to that.

When you're in love, you need someone who you can trust, you can be honest with, someone who you can be yourself with, etc...

Doesn't that sound like a best friend to you? It does to me.