I was class president at one point but that didn't go well, I had to give it up because the people who voted wanted me out of it for some reason I don't know. Being the bigger person, so I thought like one and made the decision to give it up because they are making it like a big deal and they're using all these big words and whatever in arguments and then this petition came up, it was all a wreck and I didn't want to involve myself any further in that. I just wanted to go back. Back when I was still a nobody.
The hate that I received was more than any hate that I've ever received in my whole life..........so far. It changed me. I wasn't me anymore. They saw all the wrong things that I do but the right ones, they don't. It was a whole three months of depression. It was just me and myself. I was a freshman and I'm also new to the "officer duties". What was I supposed to do? It affected me, it affected my grades, it affected my attitude towards school, I felt like I was a mistake.
Just by writing it now, I can still feel how raw the scars that this experience gave me.
I was just trying to find new friends, to adapt in this new school atmosphere, to focus for my future, to achieve more, but I realized that it wasn't that easy. I also realize that college is one step towards the real world so this will be compared to nothing when I actually work and face the actual real world.
Since I dropped the position, everything has been calm and quiet. Well, at least for now it is. The tension died down. I'm trying to build myself again. To reclaim the old me. Id I fail on that one then maybe I can build myself into someone better than the old me.
In college, there's a lot of people. From different schools, from different backgrounds, different attitudes, different morals, different beliefs, different upbringings. Like what I've said, it's one step towards the real world. This is a lesson that I will never forget because it's the one that affected my life the most.
Until my next post again!
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