Liar

The moment he said it, I thought he meant it and how stupid I was to fall for that. What we had was short-lived, yes but definitely not real. What I felt was real and his was obviously wasn't. I found out he has a girlfriend waiting for him back home and how was I supposed to react? I didn't have the right to be hurt. I wanted to cry but it didn't come. The tears. They didn't come. I know you probably, read a lot of like this but you're free to carry on if you don't feel like reading this.

I made a fool of myself. A huge joke. Why did I ever believe everything he said. I didn't know the guy for godsake! We knew each other for five fucking days. I didn't have anything to base on to give him my trust but I gave it away anyway. What was I thinking? I don't know. So his glances was him checking me out. Boys will always be boys. Girls will always be girls. Always hurt.

He kissed two girls before me and those girls were my then friends. Wow, now I feel dirty. The way he acted, the way he touched, the way everything went down between us was all a lie. He was just a guy in a new town waiting for a new fling. Fuck him.

I hate myself so much because in the very short time we're together, I'm already in love with him. That's the biggest mistake.

So this one's for the bastard that broke my never been broken heart.

I hate you cause you're sweet. I hate you cause you didn't stay. I hate you cause you lied. I hate you cause you are who you are.
I hate you because you led me on. I hate you cause you made me believe you. I hate you because you played with me.
I hate you because you made me feel like a third party. I hate you because you made me believe we had something.
I hate you because you made me feel things I was afraid to feel. I hate you because you let me believe that I could try this thing too.
I hate you because you made me feel special. I hate you because the one thing I was afraid to feel I felt for you.
I hate you because in the short time that we're together, I was already in love with you.
I hate you so much more now cause I learned that everything was a lie. The way you touch,kiss,stare,everything that we had. It was all a lie


but I'm telling you, you made a big mistake.

Someone more deserving is gonna have this.

And I am gonna meet him. Maybe not soon but I will meet him.